I’m Back!…Ish

It has been quite a while since I last blogged and it feels like another world. I had just become a mum for the second time and was in waves of wobbly mental health, nappies, teething and generally making a pigs ear of life.

A lot has changed in that time. Let’s make things perfectly clear; I’m still ballsing up life, one reckless decision at a time. But getting rid of nappies and losing baby teeth is game changing. My previous blog has vanished into cyberspace, but I may still whack these into the archives here for you to laugh at. Christ knows how that got deleted but sometimes a clean slate is a gift and I feel very differently to the wannabe “Mummy Blogger” of 2016.

Time travels crazy fast when you have kids. Or maybe it’s just when you find yourself free falling towards 40 with no parachute. Either way, although it all seems like another lifetime ago, I’m not sure where the time went. Lost in the midst of melodrama that no one needs to know about but everyone does anyway.

They say you should write about what you know and blogging gives you the beautiful freedom to do just that. To drain your heart of all it’s emotions to a load of faceless people. Free therapy and self-indulgent free publication. What is not to love? The difficult part of this is protecting the innocent. And not so innocent.

Your story is never your own. It belongs to everyone else who touches it and their truth is often very different from yours. As my dad says , there are three sides to every story; your truth, their truth and the actual truth. I am acutely aware that my flagrant disregard for my own privacy puts others at risk and I am figuring out how I sensitively handle the feelings of others whilst being brutally honest about my own.

My situation has changed. My feelings towards myself have changed. And obviously, my weight has changed (and, also obviously, not for the better). So please bear with me whilst I try to figure out how to share my story. I hope you’ll indulge me again soon.

And to be clear, I am definitely not a bloody Mummy Blogger anymore.